Things Change.

Things change. They always do. If everything always stayed the same then this life that we live would be extremely boring, and we all would be a bunch of boring people walking around doing boring things all the time.  In having said that, this last week I started posting to this blog about getting healthy and living an active lifestyle, and I have realised I have bitten off more than I can chew. I am not giving up on myself by no means, but I want to bring to this platform nothing but my truest self. I want you to see the real me, in all of my lovely fault forming glory:). I am human just like everyone else, and sometimes life just kicks you in the butt.

Today I broke down and had a smoke. Mind you, I have only been at this for a week, and I had been smoke for the better part of 13 years. I have had 3 pregnancies and have successfully quit immediately for each one. After having that smoke, even though it turned my stomach, I know the craving will come back by this evening.. I’ve been nothing but moody and certainly not the best mom that I should be for my 3 kids. I just need to keep reminding myself, BABY STEPS, and the only person I have to answer to is myself.
So this morning I let myself down, but now I can pick myself up again, and go on from here, right? Today is just one of my rough days Having that smoke seems to be all that is on my mind, and the cravings are horrible. I was told by the doctor because of my epilepsy and blood pressure pills I am on, I cannot use the patch or anything that should help someone quit smoking, I have to go cold turkey. It really seems like an impossible task this time. Before I started all of this I found out that I am anemic, and have high blood pressure to boot. I have been back and forth to doctors for the past couple of months because my period is trying to kill me and I am waiting on an ultrasound and surgery to help deal with it.
I just want to have a better life for me and my children, and it seems like I keep getting knocked down every way I turn, So instead of my blog just focusing on healthy living and fitness, it is a mom blog, because mom is what I am. I still did my house work this morning and I still got my workout in, and now in a bit the kids will be home from their sleep over with the grandparents.

This week, I will be posting Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I will also be on the other social medias all week as well.
I hope you all had a great weekend, and this week bless you with good fortune. Much love to you all.