What’s New.

So recently I started a go fund me page because I finally realize I need help. If I am going to get any proper work done, and get this website off the ground and where it needs to be, I need help. This is not something that is easy for me to say or do,but I need the proper equipment to do what I have envisioned to do. I am not asking for anything fancy either. I have spent since May using my iPhone 6s for all of my work. My pictures, videos and blog posts have all been written from this phone, and it is hard. All I need is a laptop and a decent camera for filming for YouTube and I’ll be set. I’m not asking for the top of the line brand names either, I just need something I can work with. I know once I have what I need, I can make this website soar.

I hope this little post reaches you well, and have a blessed weekend everyone.❤️❤️❤️

www.gofundme.com/mq4pz-business-start-up

Story time.

A perfect day usually consists of sleeping in, but not me, I’m not normal.

I’ve already had my perfect day, actually perfect weekend. I know everyone is expecting me to say, the day my children where born, or even the day I got married. Please don’t get me wrong, those days were amazing on their own, but after all the struggles I have been through in the past 4 years, my perfect weekend came to me in the best kind of way. One of the people I am closest to in this world called me up one day after not seeing each other in over 2 years and asked me if I wanted to get away for the night. So naturally I grabbed my bag, handed the kids to their father and jumped on it. We rented a cabin about a half hour away from my home, and stayed there overnight. We drank, we ate, and had a night of catching up on all the things we have missed in each other’s life. It was so relaxing, and nothing outside that cabin mattered for 24 hours. There were no worries, just enjoying my big sisters company.

Time.

We don’t have much time on this Earth, and yet some of us choose to spend what little time we have wasting away in worry and concern for what others think of us. In some cases, really what we think others think of us.

There are only 24 hours in a single day, 1440 minutes, and we have so much else we could be spending our time on, rather than wasting it with worry and negativity.

You should put your energy into positivity and happiness. I know that is easier said than done, and you are probably there shaking your head as you read this, but if you just changed one thought around from negative to positive, it could impact how your whole day goes.

I never believed the saying ” Mind Over Matter”. I’ve heard it my whole life, and just thought it was a simple cliche, until recently. I had an issue that I kept saying I couldn’t do, it wasn’t me. I kept using negative terminology whenever it came up. I began to practice changing the negative to positive, and it really helped. Whenever I caught myself thinking I couldn’t do it, I would change the words in my head to ” I can do it, I will do it, it’s gonna be done”. Sometimes I’d stand there and give myself a little pep talk. It really helped. Once I started seeing this conundrum in a more positive light, it became easier to get done.

But, I didn’t want this post to be fully about how to change to positive thinking.

The message I wanted to bring forth today was that,with the little time we have on this Earth, you don’t truly know how much time you have to spend with the people you love. You should make every moment count because you don’t know when fate is going to take that away from you. I once had someone tell me “Family is everything”, and I was young and naive at that time, I never understood his words. Today though, I take that saying to heart and know I wouldn’t be half the human being I have turned out to be, if it wasn’t for my family. I have been so fortunate.

For now this is my early Thursday Morning thoughts, I hope you all have a great day💜💜

Lost

The shadows fall upon the wall.

The silence is so loud.

The tears will flow.

The cries, not heard,

But felt from deep within.

People all around you now,

They fear what they do not know.

Will someone come to you side to aide,

No, Not at all, you are alone.

You may feel the sunshine,

You may even crack a smile,

But these small glimpses of happiness,

Are fleeting all the while.

Withdrawal.

Into meltdown mode I go,

Crashing.

The anger fills my nose and burns my throat.

The fear of failure is all too real.

My head spins in a million directions,

And no where to run.

How is this supposed to be easy for me?

Should I just keep my mouth shut and be fake happy?

I’ve stopped something I’ve done for years.

My chest feels like it will burst at a moments notice.

My comfort on rainy days is gone.

Where do I find stress relief now?

More questions than there are answers.

Tales from Below pt2.

Now that you have caught your breathe,

with that door slammed behind you, your

eyes roll as you remember,

something forgotten down there.

Wednesday

That day in the middle of the week that lets you know you are half way there. The day that drags on long enough to remind you that ya still got 3 more days. It’s almost as if it the filler of the week.

Monday: The beginning of the work week. No one truly enjoys Monday. You can’t sleep in, unless you hit the snooze button, but then guess what, late for work. This day seems to drag on the longest, Although Friday afternoon may seem longer.

Tuesday: Feels like Monday, sometimes masquerades like a Thursday, only to stop you dead in your tracks half way through to remind you, it’s only Tuesday.

Wednesday: Filler, nothing special, just a day in between.

Thursday: The day before Friday. The day that lets you know, guess what the weekend is just around the corner. Just 24 more hours and work is through. That is, if you are lucky enough to have a Monday to Friday job.

Friday: Ahh, the beloved Friday. Most people love this day, unless you are a parent or in a job that requires weekend shifts. Parents have the luck of Friday meaning, kids are home for the weekend (it’s a love/dislike relationship). This day means for the young adults, partying, out dancing, movie night.

So, as you see Wednesday is just the day in the middle of the week where you put you head down and barrel through whatever work it is you may be doing. Now with all of this said…..

Have a great Wednesday B’ys.

Tales from Below

Now when I say below, I mean the dark depths of what I personally hate….. the basement. That dark, damp, cold spot in this dwelling that no one wishes to go. You play rock, paper, scissors with your spouse to see whose turn it is. Even with the light turned on, you’d swear you are being watched from the shadows by something more sinister than you wildest nightmares could ever concoct.

You flick the light on at the top of the stairs, and inhale a deep breath before you descend into the dim lit room. All the while you pray that the door at the top of the stairs doesn’t mysteriously close behind you, just in case you need to make a quick run for your life.

You scan the area, hoping you wont see anything move out of the corner of your eye. Of course though, you do. The work bench is covered with all sorts of junk that can create any number of shadows across the room. Your eyes play tricks on you, as you make your way across the room. You start to sweat, your heart racing with every step. With every beat, your breathing intensifies, until you are finally across the room, and standing in front of the washing machine.

Now it’s time to get to work. Get the clothing into the washer, as fast as you can. You can’t keep looking over your shoulder, while you need to get clothes clean. You try to stay focused, but your ears are on full alert, and of course you hear every little thing. The clink of a pipe, the wind outside. All of a sudden, BANG, right out of nowhere. You jump 10 feet in the air. You spin around, trying to figure out what ghoulish creature is coming to take your soul to the underworld. That it you finished, or so you think. That’s when your lovely cat comes sauntering along after knocking over a bag of recyclables with her tail. She comes over so softly and rubs up against your leg and then slowly makes her way back upstairs.

By this time you are clutching the washer, your knuckles have gone white, and you have one hand over your heaving chest, trying to catch what little air you have left back into your lungs. This is about the moment you ask yourself why the hell did you ever get a cat.

Back to the task at hand. You now have the clothing out of the dryer and in the basket to carry back upstairs. One foot in front of the other, trying to remember, you are the adult here, you make your way back across the room with a full laundry basket of clean clothes to take upstairs to fold.

Even as you get to the top of the stairs, you still mini dash to the other side of the door, and shut it quick with one foot. You can finally breathe a sigh of relief. You made it out of the basement alive for another day.

Not today Underworld, not today demons.

G Fuel: The Official eSport Energy Drink

Have you ever grabbed an energy drink, thinking it would help boost you, but in reality all you got was the energy crash after a short burst?

Have you been searching for something healthier than the canned energy drink to help give you the focus and endurance you need?

G Fuel is a natural energy drink formula that was created by Gamma Labs back in 2012. The original goal was to come up with an 100% clean, natural and healthy alternative to the canned energy drinks that so many of us down everyday. They have a variety of different flavours and sizes from you to choose from, and also a large assortment of different Shakers, that seems to be growing all the time.

You can get any of the 20 different flavours in single pack forms of 3 or 10. You can buy boxes of singles, or you can buy tubs. My personal fave is the blue ice flavour. They also have Starter kits which include a Shaker cup and 7 singles of different flavours if you can seem to choose one flavour to buy.

It is mostly geared towards gaming, but really this can be drank for a boost in focus and endurance throughout any part of your daily routine. The effects take about 10-15 mins to kick in and lasts for about 4-6 hours. The total bonus part is little sugar, and NO CRASH.

I have always loved this brand because it has helped be curb my canned energy drink consumption and I am still getting the boost I need to get things done during the day.

Much love peeps, and you gotta try this!

This Journey.

So instead of naming this my Monday motivational, which lets be honest the title is getting boring, I switched it up a bit.

Today, I want to touch on the subject of comfort zones. I just stepped out of mine. I have been trying to get my YouTube channel up and running for sometime now. I’ve always come up with some excuse as to not upload a video, and today I finally got sick of it. I have been picking myself apart for too long. I always seem to find something wrong with myself and surrounding, to the point I am never happy with the finished product. So, today I have decided to change all of that and step out of my comfort zone, and upload that video, and continue to upload videos weekly. I am sick of worrying about what everyone thinks of me. If someone likes my face, great, if not, move on.

I’m tired of worrying about everything. I am so very tired of trying to make everyone happy. It is so emotionally draining. I don’t have that much energy as it is. So, I’ve decided to stop wasting my time and energy on the things that truly don’t matter, and spend more time focusing on the things that do. #1: My children, #2: My Blog, #3: My YouTube channel. My children are the reason I get up everyday, and the rest is just my fun me time.

I think it does people good to step out of their comfort zones. It certainly sheds a lot of unneeded stress and anxiety from situations.

“My philosophy is that worrying means you suffer twice.” Newt Scamander

Much love on this Monday.