Sunday Morning

WARNING: this post discusses a woman’s monthly cycle. If you do not wish to read about the menstural cycle, I suggest skipping this post.

Thoughts for this morning; slow starting, coffee ain’t cutting it, kind of morning.

I’m sitting here in bed, trying to think of something to write, but all my mind seems to be running back to is the excruciating pain that is radiating from my abdomen.

Like so many women in this world, I am plagued by the monthly visit fro the dreaded “Aunt Flo” “That time of the month” or whatever other tagline you can think of. It shows up every 21-28 days, stays for roughly 5 days, and then leaves, not before draining you of every ounce of energy or comfort you have. During the summer, it seems to be ten times worse. You are already uncomfortable with the heat, but then add this to the mix, and the pain and misery is 10 times unbearable.

For myself, this misery that is only supposed to last roughly 5 days, can last up to 11 for me, while I await surgery to help me. I am even on pills to help slow down the flow, and they aren’t working for me anymore. I have become anemic due to this monthly event, and the pain at times has sent me to my knees and I am unable to preform any simple tasks without having to run to the bathroom to change clothing first.

I love seeing the posts on how this should be so painful, and why am I being punished for not being pregnant again. Why cant we throw a party, and celebrate another no baby month :). I already have 3 beautiful children whom I love and adore with every fibre of my being. My body has done its time creating life… don’t I deserve a break lol.

I guess this is kind of my rant for the day because it seems that I am going to be bed ridden today with a hot water bottle, and cringe every time I have to get up and run to the bathroom, or just every time I need to cough or sneeze. I will be glad when this week is over, and I can get back to normal, and maybe not feel dizzy and like I am going to pass out if I walk more than 5 steps.

Have a great Sunday everyone.

What’s New.

So recently I started a go fund me page because I finally realize I need help. If I am going to get any proper work done, and get this website off the ground and where it needs to be, I need help. This is not something that is easy for me to say or do,but I need the proper equipment to do what I have envisioned to do. I am not asking for anything fancy either. I have spent since May using my iPhone 6s for all of my work. My pictures, videos and blog posts have all been written from this phone, and it is hard. All I need is a laptop and a decent camera for filming for YouTube and I’ll be set. I’m not asking for the top of the line brand names either, I just need something I can work with. I know once I have what I need, I can make this website soar.

I hope this little post reaches you well, and have a blessed weekend everyone.❤️❤️❤️

www.gofundme.com/mq4pz-business-start-up

Lost

The shadows fall upon the wall.

The silence is so loud.

The tears will flow.

The cries, not heard,

But felt from deep within.

People all around you now,

They fear what they do not know.

Will someone come to you side to aide,

No, Not at all, you are alone.

You may feel the sunshine,

You may even crack a smile,

But these small glimpses of happiness,

Are fleeting all the while.

My Bucket List

Everyone has a bucket list of things they wish to do before they leave this Earth.
I don’t have a long one, but I figured I would share my list with you since today I sadly had to take one thing off my bucket list.

1. Have a successful blog

2. Own a house

3. Visit Egypt

4. Not to be rich, but to have enough money to live comfortably and give my children everything they need.

5. Write a novel

6. Have a YouTube channel

7. Own a gaming PC.

8. Quit Smoking

9. Meet Lilly Singh.

10. Meet iJustine.

11. Become physically fit.

12. See my children grow up happy and healthy.

13. Have takeout brought to me and eat with no kids or animals around while I work on writing.

14: Meet Anthony Bourdain.😥💔

There are so many other things i could put on this list since it is ever changing.
Unfortunately as I said earlier, today I had to take one thing off of my list because a good man lost his battle today.

This morning, news shocked the world that Anthony Bourdain had taken his life in his hotel room. This was a man I would of loved to have the pleasure to meet one day. He was such an inspiration to myself and so many other people. He truly touched everyone he came into contact with, and I can only hope he is at peace now wherever his soul maybe. My thoughts and prayers are with his daughter and his family at this time.

UPDATE:

To add to this list things I forgot at the time I posted this.

15. Travel to British Columbia

16. Meet Lana Parrilla

17. Meet Jennifer Morrison

18. Visit Stevenson B.C.

19. Visit all of the location where Once Upon A Time filmed.

20. Be a part of something bigger than myself

21. Help someone in need.

Tales from Below pt2.

Now that you have caught your breathe,

with that door slammed behind you, your

eyes roll as you remember,

something forgotten down there.

Motivational Monday… on Tuesday.

We all made it through the long weekend, and today is back to the grind.
Tuesday is our Monday this week.

This work week may be short, but I just want you to know, that any struggle you may face this week, or anytime, you can get through it. You will get through it.

To all the hard working parents, single or together. To all the people trying to make it day by day. Whatever your struggle is, this moment shall pass and you will be stronger because of it. You will get through this. Take some time for yourself. Just stop and take 5 mins, even if its locked in the bathroom. If you need to let the tears flow, let them. Everyone needs a good cry sometimes.

For me, it may be Tuesday morning, but I had a rough Friday night, with my show ending. I know it may seem trivial to a lot of people, but 7 years is a longtime to be attached to something and be part of something bigger than myself. So this morning, now that I’m alone with my thoughts. I have my hot chocolate with whipped cream and cinnamon. I’m taking that moment to reflect on all the good that Adam and Eddy gave me and so many other people with the Once Upon A Time series. I’m glad I got to be part of something like that. It may not have been on the larger scale, but speaking with Adam Horowitz and some cast members in recent years was truly great. Being apart of that fandom and meeting so many great people in the process, making many new connections, has been so rewarding.

I guess, what I’m trying to say is, no matter how hard the goodbye was, there are so many positive aspects to it. If you are having a rough time, just step back and look for one positive aspect in your life. Something as simple as breathing. You are Alive and have so many chances to change your direction. You may not see it right now, but you will.

My wish for anyone who reads this, is that your week goes by smoothly and what ever challenges you face, may they be small, and may the sun shine for you.

Much love all ❤️ Have a great week.

“You are where you need to be, just take a deep breath.” quoted from Lana Parrilla.

P.S.: listen to “Bang My Head” Ft. Sia by David Guetta.