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This is my home.

My Grandparents home in Gambo, Newfoundland.

I am now 33 years old and have spent a good chunk of my lifetime here.

Growing up, I didn’t live in Gambo, but I spent every summer here. School would be finished in June and it would only be a few days after, and this is where I would be.

We would go fishing, or play out in the backyard, or down to the swimming pool. If on the odd chance we were in the house, you can guarantee that The Toronto Blue Jays game was on. My Grandparents and I would sit down and watch the game, or at the very least it would be on in the background while we sat down to eat.

9 pm was lunchtime. Nan would be sure to have the table laid out with cookies and crackers, and anything else you wanted. There would be company showing up, and we would all be laughing and singing, or watch the Blue Jays game.

This home has always been a source of happiness and love.

Sunday Mornings was for Church. I would get ready with Nan every Sunday morning and head down to the Salvation Army Church for Sunday Service, and in the afternoon she would bring me back after lunch for Sunday School. At night I would be left with my Grandfather, so that Nan could go to the night service, which was usually an outdoor service in the summer.

As the season have come and gone, serious changes have happened, good and bad.

I have grown up and married and have had children of my own, my Grandfather has passed away, and sickness has come knocking.

My Grandmother is the matriarch for my mothers family and I can only hope I can be half as amazing with my 3 children as she has done with her 8. She is a beautiful bright soul who doesn’t let anything get her down. She is always there with open arms.

This house is my home. For as long as I can remember this house ( and my Aunts house up the road) have been a proverbial security blanket for me and I’ve always felt safest here.

Have a beautiful Sunday everyone, I know I will because I am home🧡💜

Story Time

Today I was going to write a book post. I was going to tell you everything I like about a certain book, and why you should run out and buy said book right away. I was going to post lovely pictures of the book with its beautiful dust jacket.

(DISCLAIMER: I am not writing this to hurt anyone. This is a past story and it has been almost 2 years since it happened. Life is Better Now)

Plans change. I have a story stuck in my head that I think you should hear.
So for all of you lovely people, today is…..wait for it…

#WednesdayMotivational

A little over a year and a half ago, I went through a really tough life changing period in my life. It was the week after Canada Day, and everything in my life crumbled at my feet.

Alcohol was involved, Cops were involved. Now before I go any further, no I wasn’t drunk, no I didn’t fight someone in a club, or anything like that. It was supposed to be a fun time though. The Grandparents had taken the 3 kids for the summer, so I was free to do as I pleased.

I wont get into detail as too what happened that night, or name names, but it was just a pivotal moment in my life, and after that everything changed. I do not write this to make anyone feel bad for what happened.

The aftermath of that night is still fresh in my memory though. As I said, the children were away with the Grandparents, and I was left alone in a big house. Left to my own brain to rerun everything that had transpired. I spent the next 7 days waiting for a doctors appointment. 7 days, at 24 hours a day, equals 168 hours I spent awake.
I wasn’t scared or terrified, but I just couldn’t shut my brain off to go to sleep. Netflix and smoking became my best friend. Energy Drinks and Pepsi were my go to drink, and I barely ate anything. I binge watched the heck out of Grace and Frankie, and movies in between.

I think this was the lowest point in my life because I truly felt I had no one around me close by to talk to or help get me through this. I was completely and utterly alone in my mind. My family was a 7 hour drive away, and the very few people I did know in this town were busy with their own lives, and I felt like I would have been bothering them anyways with my own problems.

So I stayed awake, and I thought, and I cried. Not the quiet sob, or silent tears streaming down my face. I ugly cried. I bawled my eyes out until they were red and sore, and my chest felt like it would cave in at any moment.

When I was able to gather myself together, I would just leave the house to walk to the store for smokes, or more energy drinks or Pepsi. I know that was probably all contributing factors to my staying awake, but in that moment I didn’t care. The outside world was a blur. Nothing in that time mattered.

I finally got to see my doctor that Thursday, and ended up being prescribed something to help me get some sleep. I spent the next 24 hours in bed in and out of glorious slumber. I felt refreshed enough after that to gather myself up and hold my head high again and carry on.

Carry on I did!

In the weeks following that event, I moved out of that town and closer to my family, so close that I live with them now, and things have never been better. They help me with the kids, and I am able to focus more on working on blogs and writing.

The whole long lengthy point of me telling you this story is so that if you can take anything away from it, I would want you to know that in a moment of your deepest despair, no matter how bad or ugly things are getting in your moment, it will get better. It may not be tomorrow, it may not be next week, but the sun will shine again, and you will come out on the other side like the true warrior you are.

You Will Survive This!

It took me a long while after to realize, one of the hardest moments in my life was also one of the best because if it didn’t happen, I wouldn’t be where I am today. I wouldn’t be as content and happy with my life and the path I am headed on now.

I hope you all have a wonderful Wednesday, and that this week is good to you.

Keep Striving for Greatness.

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Girl, Stop Apologizing!

(Photo http://www.thehollisco.com)

I preordered this novel weeks before it became available on chapters.indigo.ca. I finally received my copy yesterday via UPS. I am halfway through reading already, and I could not be more pleased with this purchase. Rachel Hollis has hit every cord in my heart so far. Every page is one enlightening moment after another.

If I could ever recommend a Self Help/ Goal Achieving book for anyone to read, it would be THIS!

She knows how to reach your heart and your unspoken thoughts with every word she writes. She is able to speak to the little girl in my heart, who was always trying to please everyone but myself. I had tears in my eyes, and was nodding my head in agreement and hadn’t passed the introduction yet.

The layout of the book is out of this world:

Part 1 is 9 different excuses to let go of.

Part 2 is 7 behaviours to adopt.

Part 3 is 6 skills to acquire.

I love how she is able to incorporate her own life lessons into each excuse,behaviour and skill. She isn’t just tell you what to do, but how she lived it and what she did to get through it.

I know this book is going to be attached to me for a very long time, and I hope that all of you go get a copy too.

10/10 rating on the book.

I hope all of you have a great week. Sending much love from me to you.

F.O.F

I’m having a deep session of F.O.F today.

It’s been in the back of my mind for months now, maybe even years. It’s been the one thing that holds me back in a lot of my everyday endeavours.

What is F.O.F? Well I’m glad you asked. F.O.F stands for Fear Of Failure. It’s that tiny nagging voice that crawls up from the dark recesses of the furthest, deepest corner of the mind. It spreads doubt and fear of everything you try to think of, create , or do. It tries to make you believe you aren’t good enough. It crops up at the worst of times, asking the doubting questions and attempting to extinguish any spark or flame you may be trying to ignite within your soul.

At the best of times it can feel like a road block or wall has been built right in the middle of the path to your dream. At the worst of times, it can feel like chains around your neck, wrists, and ankles. The chains haul you down under the water, trying to drown out any thought of doing something new and exciting.

F.O.F will say why try that? No one is going to want to see it anyway. No one will want to hear what you have to say. You aren’t important enough to even be thinking of that.

You need to stamp that voice out.

Don’t listen to that voice, because if you do… you’ll never experience any of the beauty life has to offer.

There will always be people who want to hear what you have to say, and want to see what you have to bring to the table.

You Are Important!

You have been placed on this Earth to do great things. Destiny has a way for you.

You may not see it right now… but you will find your path.

Let your light shine, and don’t let a single person try to dull you out.

You Are Beautiful inside and out!

Besides what so wrong with failure?

If you fail at one thing, it’s just the opportunity to try something new, or try again till you get it right. Don’t let failure hold you back.

In the words of Rachel Hollis:

“You were Made for More”

Hey All!

Big things in the works for 2019.

Oh wait!

Happy New Year!

Almost through January, and I’ve got some big surprises in store for this year. Please bear with me and hang around to see all the fun we will have.

Lots of love and hope this Saturday finds you well.

Wednesday Wisdom! I’m back!

First off I need to apologize for my little hiatus I’ve taken for the past couple weeks. Life threw me for a loop and knocked me down.

Now I am back fiercer than ever and with a clearer vision of where I want to to from here.

Self doubt creeped in and reared its ugly head once again, and my mind became a dark place where every bad thought took over and I lost belief in what I could and will accomplish.

Once in a while life i gonna throw a curve at you or knock you down completely. The main point that you need to take away from all of this is;

It’s ok to fall down,

It’s ok to fail,

It’s ok to get knocked down,

But please get back up, come back stronger than ever before. Show the world that you won’t stay down.

You Are Loved.

Wednesday Wisdom

If you don’t like where you are in this stage in your life….

Then change it. You aren’t a tree. You are not stuck to one space.

I find when I get stuck on what to do next.. I just get up from where I am sitting, step outside and breathe some fresh air and it helps clear my head and refocus on the next task I am going to undertake.

So if you are pacing the floor, don’t know what to do, trying to find a new challenge….

Go for a walk, even if its to another room in the house. Turn on some music, jump around, dance!

The ideas will come. They are there in your head waiting to be grabbed hold of and brought to the light. Turn the dream into a goal, and send it forth for the world to see.

So what if some people don’t like it. I am sure there will be people out there who will.

Side note: Do not let anyone stand in your way. Do not let them hold you back.

You were born to shine!

So go shine on!!!!!!!

Pokémon!

Gotta Catch Em All!

If you are anything like myself, you just sang that line in your head.
(This is the nerd/geek in me coming out in full force)

Pokémon became a very large part of my childhood in 1998, when it first reached Canada. The franchise began in Japan in 1995.

That year, and many after, I spent the better part of my time collecting cards, having battles with my friends, and watching episode after episode of this beloved series.

It probably helped that I lived in a very small town with not much to do, but we spent our time keeping ourselves busy and out of our parents hair playing this. After a time the Gameboy Colour came out and we would spend our hours between playing cards and taking turns playing the game on the lovely Nintendo handheld. Don’t get me started on how much we loved the Pokémon Master Trainer Board game.

Now, the sad part in this story is that I grew up and got rid of my old Pokémon cards, which like many other people, regret to this day. I don’t know what it is about these cards though that keep me coming back. Maybe the nostalgia of a less complicated time.

To this day there is something very therapeutic about opening a booster pack of cards and sorting through them order of types, and putting them in protective sleeves.

For me, the only other things in my childhood that I immensely enjoyed would have been Disney and Harry Potter.

My Monday Motivation in this little story is that things were good then, and they will be good again. Find something that you enjoy, no matter how old you are, have a hobby. This may seem like something for kids, but this franchise has been around for 24 years, so I believe that this is for all ages. The ones who began with Pokémon have all grown up now and new generations have come to love the cute imaginative creatures just as much as we have.

For me, I am lucky my children love Pokémon has much as I did growing up, and now I have a little excuse to have Pokémon around the house. Even if I didn’t have children, I would still have the cards because they bring a sense of calm to me when I just need to unwind. Again, I know how nerdy this is sounding. In the back of my head I ca  hear it.

“She organizes cards for fun. Someone has issues.”

Well there are people out there who collect dead bugs for fun. To each their own.

Keep your inner child alive!

It’s ok to cry…

Some days can be overwhelming.

It’s ok to cry.

Some days you may feel like you’ve hit a brick wall.

It’s ok to cry.

Some days everyone just knows the right buttons to push.

It’s ok to cry.

Some days can be the best days of your life.

It’s ok to cry.

Some days you can make a mountain out of a mole hill.

It’s ok to cry.

Some days the littlest thing can throw everything out of whack.

It’s ok to cry.

If you ever feel the emotions of everyday life getting to be too much, its ok to just let the tears flow. The important thing is that you don’t let whatever negativity that is affecting you get you down. Wipe the tears from your eyes and know that this moment isn’t forever, and things will get better. Don’t keep your emotions bottled up to fester and rot. That is only going to hurt you. If you need to talk to someone to talk thing through, by all means, find that someone, but if you cant find anyone contact me. I’ll listen. We all need someone we can turn to.

Monday Motivational

Just Be Yourself.

If they don’t like you for that, then they aren’t worth it.

Just worry about being you, and don’t waste your time trying to be something you aren’t.

People are going to like you, and there will be people who will not like you. Surround yourself with the ones who do, and don’t give energy to the ones who don’t.

Protect your energy from negative people… you are worth so much more than you give yourself credit for.

Have an Amazing week everyone. 🙂